I was watching moving pictures of a girl in a sitting room panelled entirely in pine boarding. Clean white light and pine boarding. It was simple and very pleasant. And then she said she had done it that way because she wanted the naturalistic feel in her life. She didn't like things to be real she liked them to feel as though they were natural. It was all superficial for her. There was really nothing here that could not have been found on a Christmas card.
Of all the pressure groups in the world there is really only one that really scares me. Such a large group. Such a powerful group. Socially and politically wielding more power than is ever acknowledged. Never formed into a group, still a group it is. They are the mothers. The mothers of this country. The most extreme reactionaries. The most powerful, most manipulative group ever not formed. Holding together by powerful but unwritten bonds. Protective. Aggressively protective. Irrational. Blindly irrational. The most dangerous group at present in this or probably any country. There is no need for thought just emotional reactionary heavy handed force. They all frighten me. It is rare for me to relasx with a mother, and even then certain subjects are too dangerous for conversation.
AIDS would be one of those dangerous subjects. I was talking to a woman yesterday who was still believing it was a conspiracy. That we weren't being told the facts, that the information was useless, that nobody knew anything. Perhaps that you could catch it by breathing near somebody with the virus. Somebody who should by now have known better chose to be ignorant. And what is there reallyy to say about it all. Last year I knew one person who was terminally ill. Now I know three. That is how it is happening.
Duplication which is like repetition but not completely.] Duplication hiding identity. I have two pairs of Orange Winged Amazon parrots. That is how I see it, not as four individuals. Perhaps I just don't know them well enough yet. I have two pairs of Yellow Crowned Amazon parrots made up of four individuals. Perhaps I just know them better. I got each one singly. The Orange Wings I got two at one point. Two males. Still it seems the more they are duplicated the more I see them as a number of pairs not as a number of individuals.