Last night all the victims got together. Now they are to be thought of as AIDS people. Also there was Tony and Rod. Everywhere went Tony went his voice and everyone was sad to hear the problem. And then the evening started and everybody rallied round everybody and I see now that I have to be near the middle to keep all the threads going. But when the crowd got small enough everybody became nice and I could fall in love with all of them because people had stopped being nasty by their problems. There is a person who is looking for Euphorbia millii for seventeen months now it has been and so I went out to look for one and then later to telephone for one and finally the chain lead to Ian who had won with some buds and so was possible to give it to him later. Onto it will be some Abutilon flowers to make up for it all. And that is all because last night everybody decided to be real to everybody to be real.
Among all these people was where it is to be to be. Those who are dying or later all of us are here. Diana said that Tony is becoming schizophrenic and that may be as it may be but it was sad to see it said. Diana I think only understands but once it has come to be so it can be said so and the words can be used. But before it really comes to be so it is not so and the word makes it more so. It is a word to escape to. It is a let out before it comes to be so.
And after I had slept for too long Pete arrived to drink coffee. Pete must if he has come here again Pete must have something on his mind if he is to come here. And he mentioned it may break up as if to hedge his bets. And he wanted to see if he could come over in the week perhaps and of course. And he stayed a very long time so he had something on his mind but it never happened. So I talked about what I wanted to say and to see what will happen. And then started the Euphorbia and so late to dinner to be. That is how it all was an yesterday was all it all and so was today. Pete is now being cautious. Therefore perhaps soon Cas will be coming out alone again. That is sad to Cas however it is in him.