Choosing. Opting out. Victim by default. Choosing. These are the words. Simple word simple word simple. It is all collecting information in order to make patterns to understand things just to understand them not to change the. To understand what a thing is not have to change it to what I wanted to be.
For me it is all individuals. People who have come around to being individuals by not calling themselves part of any groups primarily. People who decided not to be stereotypes. All that I like being individuals so it not working at all easily. All very odd. Every moment for the first time is every moment for the first time. What I like best is the people who have learnt to be what they are. Who no longer support themselves in stereotypes they have seen worked out on television or in the public to show. That is what is most repressive in television. It is that everything has to be a stereotype addition to ten million people so it has become a stereotype to see. Yet to constantly show new types and always making more stereotypes out of the real things and it all being repressive. You have to be what is a stereotype or not because soon television will have made it all stereotype. It is not enough to react against it it has just to be nothing in you at all.
How to relate to people. There are people. Their own people. This is why it is always so difficult to relate one by one and white groups are so much easier because it is all predictable easily to groups being so. One by one it is that each moment has to be worked out and no conventions needed or allowed to be needed. This is how it has always be. This is what it is about drug-o that is most interesting and appealing. His own person entirely. Following the only. Cas is not this at all. He follows a lead to escape notice and to draw attention. By example.
People by stereotypes become nothing at all quite rapidly. The things people don't like are often the most positive assertions they make about their own personalities. It is the things that are not so in them but they can see most clearly. Look at it as objects and spaces between objects. They see very clearly what the object in them are not, that is they see the ways to fill the spaces, not to recognise the objects. It is the sort of living in reverse. Of going backwards. Oh no, I am not that either. The most positive assertions they make about their own life are the negatives.
The problem of identity and joviality that Cas is at present opting out all in favour of individuality by stereotype will mean that he is often jovial. Often cheerful. Never happy. Drug-o on the other hand will probably never be jovial, but will often be happy. He has individuality and will recognise happiness in him when it comes. He says the problem is how to fill time. This is why he is so. It is how to fill time. He wants to be creative and wants to write that he has no confidence to start. This is to be built easily in creativity. This is the way to fill some of the time. It will need to discussion of this afterwards.
You can build on foundations of rock or of sand. You can build foundations of your personality or rock or on sand. And that is why having your feet kicked out from under you is good. He clears the sand. The weak foundations. Sometimes you have to dig through a lot of sand to reach the bedrock. That is on the type of person you are and how dependent you are on the outside. And finally you know you have reached rock bottom that is good finally because you can build firm foundations at last and it is all not just futility. That is why people are so unstable until they have built from rock bottom. Until then it is sand. These people will crumble until then. You cannot build yourself up until you have emptied everything else out. You cannot build with it all still there. It cannot be done.