That's how it is the genius is. It is practice and technique then nothing then like being suddenly waking up so there is no point waking someone up unless they are in the space That is nothing because before then it is just technique. And even then it can be too soon. That is how it is with religion and why it seems often like genius. Because it is the space that people move into in that and then suddenly they start. And people who are at the top and going that way of people who never stopped and so have become very good technically because to have a genius Would not be right at all then. The space of course has to be the right space of course. It has to be the space of everything suddenly draining away for no reason to being difficult to feel anything and it all drifts and becomes nothing at all. That is the space and after it is easier to see it coming later before. And then it is genius when it starts again. It is like having a breakdown without having a breakdown but worse or being later. It is all not needing props and support at all and the best being to make space and allowance and tolerance and passive for it all. So without props to stay it can be so and that is how it must be to carry it through for somebody.
I went out to help somebody who I had decided needed help and so I went. And when I got there there was nobody to help and so I came away again later. And now I think about it it is not somebody who is drifting very much. And maybe just talking about drifting may have all that in it and maybe not. It is to be more perceptive than all that it seems to be but not yet direction or so but then there is youth. Youth can be about not seeming to be in any direction at all or even. And then it grows further and starts to decide that direction is only and that is where it Can start to be good technically but to stop there is useless and stale to grow old in one direction. It is to become rigid and to live only by a rules to be anything more it has to stop then and drift or it is all nothing at all. So there are those who go on forever to be good technically and possibly those who do not become good technically very fast who take a long time slowly. Always to be going forward in the right direction but not fast enough to be there in time to stop. And then it becomes habit and not anything except rigid and nothing but technical and so it cannot stop. And those are why there are so many who can never come to be genius because it is all habit. So it has to be becoming good enough to be best anywhere in time to stop and drift without direction and then he can start to be flexible and so it can all be allowed without the inside which has become habit being pushed out on to it. So it has to be that it can be good and best of technical probably but at least good to be anything very fast. Otherwise there is no point at all. Can and so there is Peter and it must be something that he was most good for so perhaps I will ask that I can see if it fits together there as well. And perhaps what is drifting and falling sideways as well can happen from being good but perhaps only from being very good or the best or of the first rank. Perhaps that is it. And so for Cas to be it must be in him to be good at very least or it cannot happen. And to be good is to understand bad and that is simple because he has that already. And if there is a subject that is suitable it will be easy to swap bad into good just by being simple inversion and confident to be that is easy but perhaps it is difficult. How to sow the seed so that it grows in somebody. It is to be the seed as well. So it was with Chris which is snowdrops which were strong in me and compulsive and growing. Perhaps it can be that art. It would be simple so for me by knowing the barriers to be broken. That must be understood to be simple. So there is a way that is not easy by being balanced throughout. The drifting is to be all very difficult at any stage but to start now is more chance than later. And perhaps with Peter it was helping people that is to be asked. That could be the way by people draining to nothing what it is and so drifting. And is drifting still to be or has that stopped or is stopping. And so there is one that it is not rigid in and one that if it can be started in will not be rigid and there are so many others who it will never be so in. Perhaps it is almost like confidence to be what it is whatever that is perhaps. That is why it is to be good. And then to take that into nothing and come out again one day with only itself and confidence still by the world. That is genius.
It is very difficult to teach anybody anything but he can be done by repetition and that is how it can be done. But it is even more difficult to teach yourself anything because it cannot easily be done by repetition because repetition can make it all less and less in you and not interesting and it is not possible to be anything that is not interesting that is to be taught to be so. So not in yourself so easily except by living always and the repetitions being life not teaching.
Everybody walks their own path and so it is different for everybody to look at even though it is the same but to look at it it is not what it is to look at. You have to constantly remember that is in being everything not enforcing but just being. And before long I expect a large space will be needed in another and that is Peter but possibly only to be as it is from me. And perhaps that is what it will need to be built again this space. If that is so it is not to be stopped yet in him.
Looking at it as it is in the groups it makes. And how it is stopped and then started again somewhere else. Constantly breaking off and moving without it being so that it is. And this is technically very good and it is people that it is so in and that is what drifting its. So perhaps if it is still technically good it is still to come and perhaps it is being naturally good by having drifting stopped by now which is genius. Anyway it stops and starts again somewhere else. And jokes which are used so carefully. So spaced. So where it is to be it and needed and when it is difficult any other way this is group forming and bonding by intimacy and also being very careful about not excluding. And that is certainly technically very good and I think to be more than that here which is with people is not technically good because it is charisma. So perhaps although it is good it is not charisma because at times it is placed there to be so and not anything more. I remember an incident which was small but a tiny exclusion and how it was corrected by being careful and coming back to rectify it so it is technical because to be genius it.
Every winter after it comes the spring. And then the tortoises open their eyes and some of them don't and they're dead. And some of them open their eyes and see and some of them just open their eyes.
The way it is broken and stopped and started at will. That is being very good technically. Starting somewhere else. Time or distance. It is also confidence. Look at that. And jokes used so carefully. So spaced.
When he comes down to Cornwall he already has 80 parrots to sex so there might not be time at all for mine to be done. I wrote this afternoon. She is a painter, but bright. There is so much to remember to ask I have written it all down but will it be possible to be anything. I don't know if notes now have meaning. Maybe only until tomorrow but probably longer.