That is why it is different from other things here. There is something about the speed of writing and the speed of thinking that is together. Not in being together and the same but in rhythms. Of writing down and thinking which by chance is often are. It is ramifying in all directions at once at a time.
It is where you are when you are looking and where you are looking. It is viewpoints. There are at least two things that are called morality and there are mostly both of them mixed together to be so. There is morality that can stand alone in the Woodlands and in watching the leaves fall grow. I suppose that is because of Dot that this has to be now. The other thing that is morality is acquired dogma not at all living in you. It is lessons, learnt and learnt, and practiced and practiced. It goes over and over again and again and by the time you are eighty it cannot easily be said which it is in you which is difficult to see. You have practice. So long so well so long morality. This is only habit.
Now when two people meet they are illusions in each other only. And when they have known each other for ever they are illusions in themselves as well. And that is how it started and how it grows and how it goes on. Look at one like a chameleon using it as a space. It is well practiced and nothing is by accident. This is not known inside him but just insecurity making malleability and it all going to that. So is built change superficially. Change coming to nothing and it all being very easy. Half of it is like being at the top of a hill and running all the way down it laughing. And the other half is like being a tiger having eaten in a bush and watching. Just watching no more. Slow and not needing by watching and half running down a hill and half in a bush watching. So it all happens that way in me which is what it must happen. And seeing in watching and not seeing in running and both being together. That is how it is and it is like that. Slowly but slowly seen running and watching but half seen only in another that is understood that it must be so but it is still quite unexpected now to be needed so. Pictures are pictures and art is people of course. So watching in surprise turning it into running laughing in moments. And it can be very interesting in me all by being not derived from inside it is so. And it all started out with cut out hands.
There is another surprise in Penzance just yesterday by people. It was by being on a youth training scheme in an impossible place and having a sense of humour be on the years it takes but perhaps I'm getting older in sight and what is younger is not so much so now as it was. Anyway what seems to be young people are all much more interesting for the moment. That is it most simply and surprises that come like that are very pleasant. It is time for things and not time for things together so can it be stopped at all or just recorded. Well here it is. See.
Now there is a warm place made of broken fingers by accident. That is very odd to find and so it is to be looked at and strange to see. Perhaps it is only the trouble in things changing and not being so. Perhaps it will all come around to be again as it seemed but probably not. It that is how it has come to be cannot go backwards only onwards and that is usually further because that is how it is. Further because that is the only way it can be until there is change. And change comes from the inside and the centre. But here there is no firm inside it is all broken or never was. Here it is so. So they can be no change only further and then it will fall and so it will be broken, so this that is a warm is also in many ways the sign of the end is coming. So it would seem. There is the hurt that it will be and there are those that will be hurt. It is always been like that and it always will be. There are two who are young and one other who is just stupid or so it seems. There is one with nothing so I suppose that is space for things to become but for now it is just stupid. Yes there is speed through his space and something which is not rest which is recognized but not before I had seen it which is not as it should be. That was all too late by being damaging. If he has to be for me to be real it must not be that I watch the scaffolding but to see only the actors. If it comes down to being mostly scaffolding in me the performance is gone. Now for me that is not of importance because of half watching in a bush and not being hungry is everything but still it damages laughing and if as it should be it is all laughing there is nothing but damage in it. To be as he needs to be it has to be right before it is noticeably wrong. He said it had to be he should know no gas because in beer it does not flow. But it is knowing before that it has to be of importance. So what it is seen to be is what it is seen to be. What it is is going further into there is impossible change or to break up. Yes I see the blame for breakup now and how it will have to be to understand stability. Yes I see the blame. It must be to us all.