I haven't found this yet, so here it is. There is no paint. No paint for the pictures. No paint for no pictures. Even in the absence of a tea ceremony serving tea itself is very beautiful. Too much usually. But usually it is all too much. Tea is simple is tea so simple. Cluttered becomes and so the tea so siumple so beautiful is gone. Tea becomes tea is becoming tea becomes tea. There is too much clutter. Quality is built from the inside outwards not from the outside inwards. If it is then it is and if it isn't so.
There is an Iris called 'Katharine Hodgkin' and it flowers today. This is not surprising it is suck a shock not to be expected. Copper carpet acaena copper carpet. Piercing through in blue and yellow. Nearly green not green. Pierce and open like a tin of beans. It is strange to be so surprised by not being so surprised. Simple should be simple, green should be green.
I have been thiunking about John and I haven't found it yet so here it is. I expect Pete is back now. Today will be the difficult day. How much knowledge in parting broken hopes who can say now only. So taday the telephone will probably be difficult. The Painshill Park Trust telephoned so organised for plants. So long ago and far away as just it was. There were nine I remember it all quite well. Nine were dispatched so nine arrived and later payment so I can be sure it all arrived. How they become organiosed who knows why. They telephoned to find out, but I have been paid and I remember anyway so it must be. Today is to be difficult on the telephone when I thought it might instead be Anita. Well let me see now, can a genius have a beard? I have been thinking about John and I haven't found it yet so here it is. On saturday at times I think I was thinking and could have been feeling more. Now next saturday can become more accidental. It was what it was. Next saturday was accidentally perhaps in John and in me and it has been so too so often when it isn't at all accidental inside. outside it becomes perhaps we shall see. Inside yes is always yes. Next saturday we shall see if John is yes and that is yes and so it is on the inside. Otherwise he is still perhaps we shall see on the outside. It will be very interesting but if perhaps we shall see he has become perhaps we shall see inside as well then it will all be a bit empty. Next saturday it will be very interesting to see if it is still done as well. In which case it is possible that it can be a genius having a beard as well which would not be unexpected but it would be new to find for me.
In the dark. In the dark of rotating lights. In the dark I am thinking not feeling. I should know. I should know. I should know. I should know I was there. That time it was me.
Now it is thought. Thought is what it is. Now it is feeling. Feeling is what it is. Now it is thought. Feeling is what it should be to understand. In the dark. In ther dark lights. It is all done well. Now it is thought now it is feeling. Together it is better to be together it is. Feelings would have helped on saturday. Now feeling is what it is and has become memory. On saturday it is thought. On saturday it is thought. Thought is what it is. On saturday it will become feeling if I can. Stuart will probably know if perhaps we shall see is yes on the inside. Stuart will not know in that way. Stuart will see that yes has become yes on the outside. He will know before I do so I can cheat perhaps. I can find out if it is yes on the inside or perhaps we shall see.
It will be interesting. There wil be feeling. there will be thought. It is already all it is. Curious that time should mean so little when it means so much.
John speaks what is unexpectedly fast. It is unexpected. One person becomes two people become three people and so on. It is like counting but more. One dimension becomes two dimensions becomes three and so it goes on and then back. It is all so fast.
John sat quietly and watched when Pete arrived in the mind game. He watched very well. I have been right so often now it is uncertain. I have been thinking about John and I haven't found it yet so here it is. this is it.
From another angle it is Jane. It is very clear and simple. Jane is Jane. John is John John is John and Charlie is Charlie. It is all very clear. If I knew with Stuart and I knew with Matthew and I knew with Phillip that Jane is Jane. Here is John and John is John. I can see that it would all be possible in that light I think. However it is curious that time goes faster and slower and is more or less important. Saturday will see if we shall see perhaps on the outside is yet or not on the inside. It will be very interesting. Already there are perhaps parallels. It will be interesting to see if they are seen. Before this even the closest was not to see where there are parallels. Not seeing these is what were destroying. Not seeing and being told it was parallel. This is what was destroying.